To start this post, I have to express gratitude for the two mothers in our lives who have raised us and taught us to be who we are today.
But to read how amazing those women are, you can read past Mother's Day posts about them. :)
Tonight, I want to talk about what motherhood means to me.
I was 20 when Petey was born and I did not feel too young to be her mother.
I think about motherhood and am in awe of how amazing mothers are. If we were to only focus on the physical tolls of motherhood, that alone would be amazing. My children were both born via c sections and to think about having a major surgery just to be a mother was a huge sacrifice. My stomach is scarred and actually there is a huge section that has been numb since I had my daughter. I have stretch marks. Breastfeeding was my enemy and didn't work out with either of my kids. I'm often exhausted from keeping up with them all day. Physically, motherhood is hard.
And then there is emotionally. Motherhood is one of the most emotionally hard things I have ever done. I am constantly worrying about whether I am loving my children enough, whether we are raising them correctly, and what trials they're going to endure when they're older. I am a worrier. It is hard for me to let my kids go do things without me if there is even the slightest idea in my mind that they may not be safe. I worry about their past, their present, and their future every day of my life. I worry about their roles in the gospel and whether they will know that they are children of God.
Happy Mother's Day to all of you mothers. What you are doing is truly amazing and I hope you've had a wonderful day.