Tuesday, August 31, 2010

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I love her and I love him.

Life with a 2 year old and a 10 month old is ammmmazing. The good outweighs the bad by a million.

Last night, Petey and I sang songs until 11pm at night...I know you think we are crazy and maybe we are. She finally said to me, "Mommy, I'm tired. It's time for bed." And I layed her down and didnt hear a peep until 10:40 this morning.

My sister in law has really impacted me since she's been here (they moved from UT this summer). She said I was an example to her (I know, weird, right?) because I am not just home. I'm home with my children and have learned in the past week what that is really all about. Being home last week meant staying up late, sleeping in, eating whatever I wanted, surfing the net all day long, and having the tv on most of the day for my kids. Ok, maybe it wasnt THAT bad but it wasnt good. A couple of days into it I realized that being home with my children comes with much more responsibility than I've had at any other job. My kids need to learn and grow and thrive and if I'm sitting on the couch all day, what kind of an example am I being to them?

I think this awakening came last Wednesday, when I realized it was time to potty train Petey. That was a time consuming process at first. I cant believe it's only been a week because she is 100% "pee" potty trained. Still 1% on the poop aspect (as in, she just went poop on the potty for the first time today!) but that's ok. I'm not worried.

Ultimately, she is the one who completed the challenge but she couldn't have done it without help and I feel so lucky to be home so that I can be that person.

This is what staying home is all about. It's about being there when our children need us. It's about teaching them the things they need to learn to be appropriate, responsible human beings.

This is the best job in the entire world.

And that's how Suze sees it.

Friday, August 27, 2010

Ms Petey Swy

Ok, little girl, it's ALL about you right now. One whole blog post dedicated to my little princess, Petey Swy (as in, Sweety Pie switched up). This girl is a whole bundle of NEW these days. Life is full of more hugging, more kissing, more I love you's, more I'm sorry's, and lots more smiling! If only you could hear her sweet little voice...for now you'll just have to imagine.
I wanted to remember a couple cute phrases from this firecracker in the past couple of days so here goes:
I took Petey to the dr and when daddy comes home he says, "What did the dr say?" to which Petey replies, "He said no more monkeys jumping on the bed!"
Driving in the car on our way home the other night and she says to me, "Mommy, are you looking at me?" And I said, "No, 'Petey', I'm driving." And she says, "Mommy, are you smelling me?" It was so funny and random.
Tonight she runs in and says, "Oh no, mommy, I peed in my panties! I'm sorry." and before I can reply she says, "It's ok, it's gonna be ok." Apparently, she knows how stressful potty training has been for me.

And speaking of potty training, we are on Round 2, Day 3. Round 1 was a month ago if you'll remember and it didnt go so well. We decided to wait until I was not working anymore and see if it got better.

And guess what?

It did!!!

She seems to really be getting the hang of it and even the times she has accidents, she immediately knows to clean up and try again next time. She has stayed dry all 3 days except between the hours of 1pm-5pm, when she'll have 3-4 accidents. Is that weird to anyone besides me? That used to be her naptime during those hours and I'm sort of wondering if the two have any connection. I am so proud of my big girl. She is learning SO much and doing so many wonderful things. Hopefully this potty training continues to go well and we can be fully potty trained by next week---maybe that's too soon but I think we can make it happen. Between now and then, I just really have to stay on top of the laundry. :)

And that's the way Suze sees it.

Sneak Peeks

Since I am now a stay at home mom, I wanted to be more productive with my kids and teach them all that I can. I decided to make a "Days of the Week" chart to go up in the playroom so every day Petey can change what day it is. I laminated everything and decorated it with stickers from Grandpa's office. :) On the back of each day is velcro so Petey can change easily change the day of the week every morning. So far, so fun! Even though she doesnt get it yet, she has fun changing the day with help from mommy. Also, my awesome sister in law and I decided to do a homemade Christmas this year with our tight budgets. I thought I'd bring you a sneak peek of the presents for each of our kids. This is Petey;s sneak peek...can you guess what we're making?
And this is Spidey's sneak peek...any guesses? :)

For the last craft of the night, I cooked this one up today after seeing something similiar on Make it and Love it. It was supposed to be a giraffe...but I forgot to add the ribbon for the tail and mane. Oh well...it now resembles a lamb and Spidey loves it. I'm thinking he'll get something fun like this for his birthday...we'll see. :)
He knew just what to do with his new animal friend...

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Day 3

Day 3 of staying home with my kids and two things have stuck out to me:

First of all, I didn't know two little human beings could wear me out so much! My 2 year old started potty training (again) today and I am so determined to find success this time around. Day 1 was today and she had 8 successes and 4 accidents...double the success! Hopefully tomorrow will be even better. My 10 month old is everywhere! He is into everything and is constantly keeping me on my toes. Along with making huge messes, he can flash the biggest smile Ive ever seen...so how could I ever stay mad at him?

The second thing I have noticed is that I am completely in my element here at home. My kids needed me and I needed them and now that we've made it all work, everyone seems happier. I am great at being domestic (besides the cooking part...any easy recipes welcome). I guess without sounding snotty, I just feel like I am good at being a mom. It isnt easy...but it's what Ive always wanted to be. These two beautiful spirits have been sent to my home for a reason and whatever we have to do so I can stay home, we'll do...because I now realize that is important. I dont always know why but I know it's the feeling I get when I'm at home all day long with them.

I thought it would be boring to stay inside the same 4 walls all day long but it's actually quite nice. I think we'll try and have many days where we utilize our home and find ways to get creative...and once it cools off, Im sure we'll be at the park most every day since Petey is already asking when we can go to the park again. Sorry, girl, I am not taking you to the park when it's 115 outside!

I love my new job more than Ive ever loved a job before.

And that's how Suze sees it.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Fuzzy and Dull

Sometimes I just feel fuzzy and dull.And I procrastinate and whine. I put it in my mind that I am not skinny because of my body type---which is only half way true. The half that's missing is the WORK half. I literally have done nothing to lose weight in maybe 3 months. Sad, I know.
But instead of doing something about it, I feel dull and fuzzy. I feel lost and I would even tell you that life is unfair in those moments.
But life isn't unfair. Maybe the skinny mom of 4 is having self esteem issues just as I am having.
I have a pretty fair life and because I'm in a funk, I have decided to list all that is good in my life.
  1. My husband. He is my support and my rock. We argue and fight but there is no one in this world that loves me more than him.
  2. Petey. That girl is a fireball and a sweety pie (actually that's how she got the nickname Petey...cause her Papa calls her a Petey Swy instead of a sweety pie). She loves unconditionally and will always hold a special place in my heart.
  3. Spidey (Papa gave him this name because he shares a first name with a famous UFC fighter...so if you know the UFC fighter named "The Spider", you now know my son's name) is just a joy to be around. He is constantly smiling and giggling and learning something new. I know he is going to wear me out because he is always on the go but I love that about him.
  4. My older sister, Andrea. She is my best friend. Enough said.
  5. My mom. My husband's mom. Both of our dad's. My sister in law. Honestly, our whole families!
  6. My job. I know I'm quitting but I'm grateful for the 4 years I spent there.
  7. Being able to stay home.
  8. Technology.
  9. A lovely 3 bedroom house that we already seem to be outgrowing but are not moving anytime soon so we'll love it just the same. :)
  10. My van. I LOVE my van and we were in no circumstances to buy a car when the opportunity present itself. We seriously are blessed.
  11. My religion. I am LDS. And this church is true. If you'd like to read more or have me send you a Book of Mormon , I would love to...free of charge!
  12. All of my challenges and mistakes...it's hard for me to admit but what hasn't killed me has only made me stronger. I believe I am a better wife and mother because of the life experiences I have had.
  13. The fact that I get to be surrounded by children from now on. These kids are my life and I did not know I could love mini human beings so much!
So today, Ill try and feel a bit brighter and more clear. Ill hug my kids one last time before bed. Ill tell my husband what he means to me.

And Ill realize that life really isn't all that bad.

And that's how Suze sees it.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

The Grandma

Two more days and our lives are forever changed.

Two more days and we no longer worry about the instability for our children...because even with great parents that watch our children, I still feel a sense of instability. They never know where they're being dropped off and who is going to have them. My kids have just learned to go with the flow and I cant wait to have them here with me. In our home. The place we are most comfortable.
There isnt enough thanks in the world for my mother and all that she has done for her grandchildren. In the span of a week, she is going from seeing ALL 5 of them at least 4 days a week to having one grandchild to watch. Not that we are moving or going anywhere...we will still see her often. But I could not believe it when she cried the other day. It just truly shows how much my kids mean to her. I love my mom and though I cannot wait for this next chapter in MY life, I know she is sad for a chapter ending in her life.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

I sometimes wonder...

Arent these people beautiful? This is the whole G family...as in, my parentals on down to my youngest nephew. I sometimes wonder what I would do without these people. It wasn't easy growing up with them as my parents but that has nothing to do with them. My idea of easy was to have parents who didn't care what trouble I got into...and boy did they care. Time and time again, my parents have saved me. Time and time again, they remind me how great of a job I'm doing. My dad will randomly call to tell me what a great mother I am. And when I told him I was quitting my job at his office, he supported me. He always has.
I sometimes wonder what this kid will grow up to do. This is my one and only brother...youngest in the family and only one that my parents "picked" (as in, he's adopted). I wonder what he'll accomplish and how people will percieve him. He has special needs...and is a very special boy. But I still wonder. I know who he is and love him for the young man he is becoming but I hate when kids at school are mean to him. I'm very protective...because only I get to pick on this kid and get away with it. :)
I wonder the same thing about this special girl. I wonder what more she will surprise us with...since a few years back, she surprised us by letting us know that even though she can speak no words, she can read! This is my only younger sister. Not adopted. Autistic among other things. And boy is she special too. I wonder how much she understands and I believe the answer is A LOT. I used to wonder if her not speaking was just an act and imagine that someday she would just wake up speaking full sentences and say, "I fooled you guys!" But still to this day, that dream has not come true...and I doubt it ever will. But it is still fun to imagine. :)
I wonder how I got so lucky to have such wonderful siblings, the blonde one of whom is leaving for China next week for 9 months and then to California after that for who knows how many years. She's my best buddy (yeah!) and I'm sad to see her go. I'm trying not to put up a wall before she leaves (and takes my adorable nephew with her!). I'm trying to be happy for her...and not sad for me. And then there's the next older sister, second from the right, who has lived in Flagstaff for years now. We have a Valentine's date every year and she means the world to me. Her and I have had more problems than any other sister...probably because we are more alike. But our Valentine's day date is our way of keeping our relationship alive (or at least that is how I feel). And then there is my oldest sister, second from the left. She gave me my first nephew. And my second. And she gave my daughter her first best friend. And she's always been there with any mother problems I am having. She stays strong even though we have both had to work while our kids are growing up. Stronger and less whiney than I have been about the whole situation. And in one more week, we wont work together. And I feel like I'm deserting her. And yet, throughout this all, she is HAPPY for me. Truly, she is selfless and there is a lot I can learn from her. Because I tend to get pretty selfish. A lot.
I have a pretty awesome family. I wonder where we will be in 10 years and yet, I have no doubt the answer will have something to do with happiness because of the great things we are all accomplishing in our lives. I love having so many sisters...and I love my spoiled, silly brother. :) My parents created a great dynamic for us and I wouldn't trade these people for the world.

Thursday, August 12, 2010


All my life, I've been so jealous of people who are lucky enough to have blue eyes. Eyes are something I notice first on most people and I felt so sad that I had boring hazel eyes. I even dyed a pair of contacts once to try and get a brighter eye color. It wasn't until I started dating the most special person in my life, my husband, that I felt I had beautiful eyes...only because he reminded me all the time how jealous he was. I thought the guy was crazy. Jealous of me? Especially when he was blessed with these...

Of course, our first born got his eye color and I hear more than once a day from strangers that she has million dollar eyes. I was ecstatic when her eyes started turning this color. I wanted all of my children to have their daddy's blue eyes. And then we had Spidey. He started out with dark blue eyes (like most babies do) and has ended up with my hazel coloring. I was sad when his eyes started changing color but his daddy was so happy and loves that our boy has hazel eyes.

I guess I'm learning a lot about my physical appearance these days and that is the moral of this story. Even when I don't love myself, my husband thinks I am so special. He thinks everything about me is beautiful and when I'm having hard "woman" days, he is always there to reassure me that I am the most beautiful girl in the world.

I dont know what I'd do without that guy. I know he loves me just as I love him and I dont know how I got so lucky to have him for eternity.

So here's to the men that make us women feel beautiful.

And that's how Suze sees it.

Monday, August 9, 2010

Did you hear the news?

In two weeks I'm going to have to change this blog a bit...because Im going to be a stay at home mom!!! And also a surrogate mom!!! Well...a babysitting mom, that is. To other babies.
Yes, I have one babysittee lined up. Yes, he is adorable. Yes, he is almost 3. Yes, I will watch him part time. And yes, I will love every minute of it...or at least most every minute. :)

Does that answer any questions you might have?

This could, in fact, be the biggest CHANGE post Ive done in a long time...and also the best change post.

And that's how Suze sees it.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Monday, August 2, 2010


Sometimes, I might go overboard. Not literally, like one would imagine a sailor at sea.

When a situation presents itself that I particularly like or think can change my life, I feel it is in my duty to work hard for 'Said Situation'. One never knows what could happen and if I don't try, I'll never succeed.

Maybe the 6 page power point presentation I sent to my dad was overboard. Only time will tell.

Sometimes it's fun to be slightly sneaky on my blog, leaving little tidbits of information here and there for the world to wonder about. What would be even more fun would be getting 100 comments of people wanting to know more about what I am writing. But alas, you 3 readers are faithful enough and I wouldn't ask you for such nonsense...especially since you wont get any more information unless 'Said Situation' actually pulls through.

All I ask for is this, my faithful trio, please keep your hopes up high for me. Maybe say a prayer. Maybe just cross your fingers. Whatever is your cup of tea.

And that's how Suze sees it.

PS: Potty training Stinks! I think we have given up for a few months unless my angel of a mother can convince Petey that the toilet is not scary. Yesterday, she yelled at me and said, "I want to be a baby again and wear diapers!!!" Yeah...not sure how far we're gonna get with that attitude.