Today I realized how blessed I am. Ok, fine, most days I have some sort of realization like this. Maybe someday the staying home part of my life will be a "normal" routine and I wont as often realize how special it is but for now, I dont take it for granted.
Anyway, back to the point...I was realizing how blessed I am as I looked into the hazel eyes of my chubby little boy's face. Money is going to be really tight these days and I am not always sure how things are going to work but every time I get fearful of the future and for a glimpse think about going back to work (I know, it's been 3 weeks, I'm so dramatic), something happens. Like today, when two people contacted me and need a babysitter for this week/next week. Oh the extra money REALLY helps. And I know I have days where I'd just rather be home with my kids and nobody else's kids but I'm trying not to be spoiled. When you pray for a way to stay home and people contact you about babysitting, you take the opportunity you've been given. At least I do. Or did. :)
Friday will be our biggest Suze's Daycare day yet (and no, I didn't name my daycare that...because I dont have a professional daycare so why would I name it?). Three kids besides my own ALL day long! Ranging between the ages of 15 months to 3 years old. Please cross your fingers for me. :) I'm sure it'll be fine and 1 one of the kiddos is not one of my normal babysittees so it wont always get that crazy here at my house.
I'm just nervous, that's all. Money was never really tight when I was working and we took a lot of money out of our budget when we decided it was time for me to quit. So I'm hoping we can make it work. I'm praying we can. But I'm still scared.
So that's where I'm leaving it.
And that's how Suze sees it.